LaLaLife is good

So things have changed considerably since my last post. you read that the excitement of my week was watching hocus pocus (seriously - i love that movie!) but when you think about it being in LA and a movie being the highlight of your week?? ok.

I was totally stressing about buying a shitty shitty bang bang (car)..
little did I know you had to get the car to have a smog check (for faults..) and if you bought it not knowing you would have to pay more money...then get it registered with proof of smog..then obviously gas...parking money..etc. I have no job. running low on cash...it really wasn't working out without a job (or a working visa - which is making it 10 x harder getting ANY job, so yes, i am not a weird person that can't get a job, i don't have a bloody visa - giving me the shits to be honest - as you can imagine)
last week i had been going to cafes/retail/restaraunts etc asking for a job - 'where are you from?
'australia'
'do you have a visa?'
'i'm on a tourist visa but i have a SS'
'sorry can't hire you but some places will'

After many attempts of trying to get a job, finding a car - i was thoroughly exhausted. i took one day as time out. i thought to myself, i just can't afford to get a car, i can't get a job without a visa. all was failing. i told my family i was coming home november. i had actually given up. i tried everything. i was at my lowest point. couldn't go further.

at that moment of giving up - my friend msg'd me saying i could borrow her car. amazing. i have known her for just over a month. i couldn't believe it & forever thankful. so taking it as a sign. i must stay. I believe it is a sign. I am going to stay. stick it through. make it happen.